I love roller-coasters.
Roller-coasters are my favorite.
But I hate emotional roller-coasters.
And that's what I am. One, big, fast, emotional roller-coaster.
Not necessarily in that I'm crying one moment and jumping for joy the next.
But, in that I want to do something one moment, with complete motivation and reasoning to do it,
then the next moment I want to do something else. A moment can last from an hour, to a day, to a week, to a year. Lately, it usually lasts a day.
I come to a realization, believe it and see completely clearly how it's right and smart and logical,
then, *poof*, my emotions get the better of me and I'm back to feeling.
When I feel, I feel in extremes. When I think, I can't not feel.
I have the hardest time separating my emotions from any situation:
If it's a decision, my emotions have to be a part of the decision. Because who ever made a good decision based completely on logic..right?
If it's an argument, I argue based on what I feel because who ever made a point using only logic?
If it's interpreting something someone says or does, I automatically assume it was based on emotion, because emotion is the foundation for everything I say and do.
If only emotional roller-coasters gave me the same adrenaline rush as a real roller-coaster.
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